& In The Storm

How dare you.

My head pounds, equal to the feeling in my heart. What a complex thing. The rhythmic beat throughout my body. Echoed in my skull. My skull. This isn't something for you to witness. Hide your eyes while I hide my heart. I shake. Vibrate. Rage, anger, ferocity of raw emotion. Cut me open, make me bleed. Take the damn thing out of my chest, for you feel no fear, no regrets. This is it. Ask me what it's like. It's cold. N u m b i n g . The feeling, much like the word, slides over my tongue, across my lips. No longer pain. No longer anything. Raw, blistering numbness. Emptiness. BLACK. That's what it's like. A gaping, abysmal chasm. A cavern. With endless seas and starless skies. Full of turmoil, grief and anguish. The endlessness of it all. Violently fighting off emotions only to be replaced by something equally violent. 

Wait.

I feel...something; deep within my soul. At the bottom of the black sea lies a secret. A thought. Buried long before the storm began. Thunder. Lightning. Clouds rolled so thick and black there is no line between sea and sky. Struggling waves and choking spray. Rain from the heavens mixed with the salty bitterness of the sea. Tears? The skies are crying now too. The clouds lightening and opening so that the stars may slowly weep across the sky. There is a calmness. Between the blackness I cannot see. A song emerges from the distance. From where I cannot tell. Melodic. Stricken. I feel cold. But now I can see. There is life stirring. A light shines. The sun. Bubbling from the sea a thought arises. A secret.

You cannot hurt me.