Positive

It's not often I know what is happening with my life but there are days when I am positive that God is present.

The Walk

The garden of Eden is an archetype for all who have lost, which is the whole of humanity.  To have is to lose, as to live is to die. Still, I envy Adam.  For though he lost Eden, he still had his Eve.

Alan Christoffersen's diary

Silence

It's not even that you're around. It's the chances I gave you, and the choices you made. Or didn't make. You say one thing, and do another. You want to be friends, but cut me off. I tried. So. Hard. Am trying. Am giving up. Am frustrated, mad, confused, angry, lost, upset. I honestly don't know how to act toward you. Do I keep up my charade of silence or do I continue to push you. I can't say.

I hate that you have control over my actions. It's been so long, I should be fine. But it's like I don't even have a say.

Mindless, Brainless, Robotic

I hate that it seems like somebody else always has control over me. My feelings, my thoughts, my emotions. I'm my own person, but yet...I can't react to people the way I want to. I know it's not a big deal, I know it's silly, but I can't stop the sinking feeling in my gut, the thoughts, the madness. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. Logic tells me that I'm wrong, but my mind tells me that I'm upset. 

Be careful what you say. I don't want to be your robot.
Words have power.